Tuesday, February 05, 2008
Leaving tomorrow for vacation, though it hardly feels like it's here. Packing hasn't happened. Neither has laundry or kitty litter or watering the plants - all the fun things I do to prepare to leaf. It WILL happen though and I will leave, feeling fully prepared and hopefully "with it". I know excitement is in me, I know a huge smile will grace my face on the train ride down and the entire car ride over. What is it, 16+ hours? LOVE the road trip!! Love it all, love the path I'm taking for life. Of life? Taking life? That reads funny but I know what I mean ...
I'm not much fun to talk with right now, am I? My toes are giddy, they like clicking against each other.
Feeling fatigued about work since the new year started. Every time I try to put my finger on it, I come back to the thought of "what if this is just how it is?", and fatigue sets in deeper. It's like I don't have time to sit back like I used to, I need to make time to do that. It's all in my mindset and I know this, and at the same time I'm worn down too much to care. Sounds so shitty when I write it out and maybe it's just because I'm sick right now but that's what I feel.
Going to sleep now. Hopefully I can zip around tomorrow lickety-split. Hop hop like a bunny!
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
One that's gonna change my heart
I'll find it in commercial appeal
And then this heartache'll get chased away
I don't know why I feel this way. Like running down a field until my feet trip, head over heels I'm stumbling and rolling. Travel is consuming me, I want to get out so bad. Away. Closer but not far. Far but not all the way. I don't even care much where, just that it happens. There is room for everything I want. Wiggling its way in, I'll keep my dreams alive, the ones close to my heart that feed my brain's sensory.
Dance, dance dance away. Kick up your shoes, fly away in the wind. I'm going to bed now.
it don’t beat
it don’t beat the way it used to.
and my eyes,they don’t see you no more.
and my lips, they don’t kiss,
they don’t kiss the way they used to,
and my eyes don’t recognize you at all.
Need to pick up pain thinner on my way home from work. Easel is all set up and ready to go, canvas waiting. Colors bursting through me, I want to get this out. I feel good and great I feel ready and amped. I also feel like the shell that's dropped into the sea and slowly drifts down to the sandy bottom.
Got excited for moving last night, looking at redfin. Not sure where that's going to end up but it's going to happen and it will be good. I'm singing inside. Too busy to write here at work, want to get back to this.
Friday, August 10, 2007
Curious if we'll end up going to La Poosh tmrw. It would be so nice to sit on the smooth rocks, next to a fire ... It would also be fun to end up in town with a whole bunch of nothing to do. Open road, open plans. I love it!
Very happy lately. I like having my time back.
Monday, August 06, 2007
Blanketing opinions that I'll probably regret soon.
My mind changed me so much I can't even trust myself.
I changed my mind so much I can't even trust it.
Life is strange. You meet people, you learn things about them and they move on. Some people you learn about and you weave stories together and it bonds you. Life goes on and you have strings to people and things that matter. Without them can sometimes be easier, sometimes harder. I'm learning (again) that I have a great foundation of friends, full of love.
Work is so much work lately. Pretty overwhelming. I switched modes and have been listening to This is a Long Drive pretty much all day. I love music that has been a soundtrack to my life for so long. Can't remember who they opened up for but I can vividly remember seeing these guys at the velvet elvis. There were just bleachers set up for chairs, they might have played a whole five songs but we were so excited just to SEE them.
Dark chocolate with caramel is pretty effin' phenomenal.
Thursday, August 02, 2007
I wake up and the phone is ringing,
Surprised, as it's early.
And that should be the perfect warning,
That something's, a problem.
To tell the truth I saw it coming,
The way, you were breathing.B
ut nothing can prepare you for it,
The voice, on the other, end.
Thursday, July 26, 2007
HMMM. I like this plan formation!!