Holy two-boat work schedule, Blog. Very pleased I caught the 6:55 today...

Just found out that spinach and peanuts block your body from absorbing calcium. But not chocolate = Interesting.

Looking forward to Whistler this weekend!! I hope it warms up up there, just checked and it is a rigid 30F. Not exactly what I'd like but hey that's good! Also hoping it stays dry because I would very very much like to go skatepark touring up the hwy as well. Fun weekend coming up with my honey! I love it that we can do anything together & don't get bored and don't run out of words to say. Love that we are going out of town, to forget about things for a few days.

Argh must work must Work! Bogged down in a swamp, must work. Belle & Sebastian are perfect right now.

Oh Blog. I am getting tired of fixing my posture. I almost told my p.trainer to just tape me up so I can screw all these stretches and exercises. But my doktor wants to stop acupuncture & start on massage, which would be a lovely treatment.

B's birthday is tomorrow and Brian since you read this sometimes, I can't very well write what I got you now CAN I? Hah. Gin and I took the early boat (whee) and ran all over the place before finding what we needed: undisclosed birthday present item here. She sure can come in handy for knowing what to get for people! Such a lovely, thoughtful girl. This weekend is getting all full of stuffs.

And I want a nice new wide skateboard. Very envious of B's new deck...

On the positive, work is seeming accomplishable again. The tables are giving me issues but it's coming along nicely. Stupid MS with their stoopid .NET krap, they were in our office today filming and they were like "oh, cool...so you guys are the web department - can we film you like, doing some real-life work?" Ali and I both despise this attention. Ali more than I, likely, being as she really knows a whole bunch and nobody out there even knows a small percentage of it. Then this guy has to come out and - oh I don't know. I think it was also Vickie Mercer who creeps the entire company out. She came by, then lousy Pius and his droning voice came by With the Cameramen. Just obnoxious.

Ah yes, the positives...getting excited planning someone's birthday. Never done that before. Cute gerbera daisies here by my desk...all bright & cheery. Oooh and we're planning time up at the condo in Whistler - biking yay! Summer trips are looking splendid. I can't wait to go surfing! Want to nail down SD - excited to surf in warm weather. Oooh yes. Longboard skimming across bubbly waves with sunshine on my back, sounds of crashing water and getting wet in my bathing suit. I.Can't.Wait!!

Limited mobility passenger elevator

Servicing the piling

Such a fun yesterday, canoeing! Seeing the blue heron very up-close, when it was stuck in the reeds...the eagle chasing the seagull...getting stuck backwards in the dead-ended tunnel. Mother goose, large mother goose, guarding her nest and scaring me. Having fields of lily pads surrounding and the sun shining its rays right through the bright green leaves, casting soft glow across everywhere I look. And then having to pee in the middle of the fun.

Rotating scrabble board = trouble.

Ug. Highly delerious due to lack of proper sleep. Bedtime: 2am. Awaketime: 5:45. Stupid early boat. What in god's name was I thinking? Stupid scrabble addiction. I wasn't even playing with good score last night.

Today:

- work. finish Ride boards...specs & features. need to create interactivity per Tara's req?

- mandatory picnic. no longer care about rumored beer.

- followed by mandatory meeting. hmph.

- acupuncture. maybe she can stick a needle somewhere that will make my body think it has gained sleep?

- sleep, cozy, lounge etc. tonight. highlight of the day!

Reheating hazlenut soy latte was worst idea in the world. Disgusting - took one sip and almost hurled self out of whale.

Staying up until almost midnight finishing pages just doesn't work when I have to wake up at 6:30. Lethargic drawl runs through my limbs.

DeathCab is just about all I can handle right now. Enough of stupid new White Stripes, no thanks Cory. ...stupid cory.

I am eight years old. Today has not been a very good day. Today has made me want to scream because right now that's what I am doing inside. I hate feeling like my whole life built up to this day has been one big mistake and it's not getting any easier to figure out where I'm going. I hate that when we were putting up those framed polaroids in the kitchen that the sun had to come bashing down and make that loud noise. And I don't hate my kitty but I didn't like that watering pitcher to hurl itself off the windowsill when I opened the window, causing Begonia to leap out of my arms with her claws ripping into my arms, then landing on the lucky bamboo pot and cracking its lovely green varnish.

GRRRR.

Brian's not good at small talk. And that's okay!

JoJos for dinner....that's okay, too. Thanks B for going and getting that because I am stuck here building out my 24 pages of snowboards. Yay.

Don't like how I've been feeling about myself this week. Want to crawl in a hole. Really don't want to go to the picnic on Friday, though beer is a good incentive. Stupid work picnic, stupid boss leaving for vacation so we have to come in on our days-off.

Oh I am full of complaints right now! Let's hear something positive, okay? ...I am looking at beautiful roses that my honey brought me. They smell lovely and remind me that even though I might not feel like it, I can be special.

gag

Resisting the urge to go to scary upstairs cafeteria. Have been hearing good reviews lately from A, but still skeptical. I know there was a reason I was protesting!

Recent thoughts:

- when acupuncture/PT is finished, will maybe do yoga instead of kung foo

- whistler over memorial day/skate tour - very fun

- check into frequent flier miles/san diego surf trip

- when IS cory going to stop playing that g-damn postal service?

- want to go skating after work! it's all sunny!

- look up 2, 3-letter words for scrabble

See all the business inside my head right now? And I'm supposed to be working on these images for the dana site. Thank god the sb site's almost done...this pile isn't getting any smaller!

Excited Holly is coming home!

Sucks it rained today. SO glad I went out yesterday w/Gin to Burien & Lakewood. It was nice, both weren't even packed and we got there a little late. That little brat that calls me fart-girl was there. He makes me want to vomit, these kids are so good, so young. I love it. Then at Lakewood it was funny, there was this dad there wearing all pads and a safety vest with "Volunteer Patrol" on the back. He was giving me tips on rolling off the spine. Gotta love it! Then we practiced our ollies next to the car and took off. Though I have no desire to hop curbs and skate street, I love that other people do because of the practice it takes to get that good.

And the little girl wearing her Good Charlotte t-shirt, with boots on.

Had a garage sale yesterday. B made $400 off his snowboard gear, etc. Yay garage sales. Boo to the fish & chips at Pacific Inn. Are they only good with beer? Today is a good day for me to get everything cleaned up, positive side of it being wet & can't skate. I can't believe the unpacking process has taken this long. But it feels good, I love everything about this place! Kinda weird that I live in the same building as Jody. I've never had a friend live in the same building before. Glad she keeps her blinds drawn because I like having mine open. I don't think I could be comfortable in my room unpacking everything if I looked up and saw her looking out her window. Ack.

Want to be huge recluse lately. Too much socialization squashes my mind from roaming.

One question: WHY would you go to an all-skateboarding event, if you don't even skate? Please submit all responses directly to me. I want to know!

MAYDAY, MAYDAY!

Too bad I'm at work today and can't leave flowers on people's doorsteps. That's ok, there aren't really flowers anywhere to pick.

So I am just about all moved in now and it feels So Good!! Very fun place we have now. And a new plan with Mexico: we're going to take a little vacation in October now - fun! It will be a bit of a burden off my back, I can focus on work and not worry about being tight for money. We'll do something superfun for B's birthday still, for sure. Want to have a party! And hopefully now, we can hang out in San Diego for a little weekend. I haven't been there since my 9th birthday. The only reason I remember that is because there was a little bookshop there I got to choose out a book. So I am not too sure what exactly we'd be doing down there, but it would be very fun to find some surf spots and just hang with my sweetie. So fun!

Good updates, we have. Work is a big hairy swamp right now, complete with alligators and wombats coming to get me. A bit of anxiety, and Ali feels the same way. Hope to hear good things about our budget today. Keeping fingers crossed.

Oh, what fun. Liquid, 5150 and Morrow ALL want sites this year, and of course *flash* would be the best method of execution. Why does it feel like work is this big uphill climb? So yay we had a meeting on it and somehow I found myself sitting there, promising to have two comps done by e.o. May. MAY! Ohh, gag. I know they're going to be supereasy, copy sites. I wish I could find a new job that would offer me a bunch of money so I could counter my salary here with something better and realistic. Perhaps this is karma's idea of a funny to play back on me, since I was making absurd amounts of income two years ago, for doing less work. Hmm. Conspiracy.

Different anxiety, the good kind: tomorrow the lease gets signed! Oh fun, what joy! Pity I didn't get to study up on Feng Shui as have been wanting to...hopefully my intuition doesn't fumble the flow of energy too much...

-15 days to go!

Today I can't help it. I just don't feel like being at work! Piled up around me, requests flooding in, it all seems a bit unbearable. Consumption of chocolate in near future I predict. And why can't stupid Cory stop playing his music all loud? Did we all request to please hear ear-ruining, bad headache-causing music? I wasn't involved in the vote.

Ah, Mexico: 17 days away! Eeek! In the meantime I hope to pack and move all belongings over to the new apartment...if good ole' Fran would please call the agency back so our credit applications may be cleared. I hope there isn't any karma attached to those kinds of things. Late rent...landlord doesn't call the agency back for a little whiles...

Monster is swimming laps. I know I need to change his water! He's all agro and mouthy towards me. Makes me sad.

This weekend was fun, seeing Holly. So glad it was warm out! We had a good time, just hanging out and doing stuffs. I miss her, all the way out in Pullman. Kind of glad she's only got a year of skool left (hopefully just that!) but wonder where she'll go after that? It's funny but nice, that our entire family is all close and we don't have to plan big trips to see each other.

Blah, my nose is all stuffed. I wish I could portray the amount of snot in my head through these words I am typing.

Being sick sucks. I love eating but this cold has totally taken away my appetite. Stupid cold.

Fang is tired of living in a little bowl. He thinks he wants a nice big pond to swim in. I don't know what he'd do there, but he says he'd appreciate it all the same. What's the difference between the sayings
"Just the same"
&
"All the same"
? anything?

On the side (le appetizer), I do enjoy spending later evening hours in Barnes & Noble with my honey, exploring books and sipping teas.

Sun outside, sunny inside. So nice and warm today! Mexico is destined for takeoff in one month, starting today! I can't believe it's here already! The days are going to blow by, getting ready for leaving.

Last night I had this dream that I was walking down the halls at Sammamish with this girl I wasn't even friends with, and I saw Craig and Casey. They were all goth! Craig had some stuff in his hair to make it all spikey and he had dyed it black, and he was wearing eyeshadow and a ripped up t-shirt, then some lace-up boots. It wasn't really Craig because he wouldn't have ever dressed like that, but it was funny to see in my dream. Casey was goth too but he just had on this trench coat, which was creepy. His hair wasn't black, which was good because I would have gotten worried.

Now I am hungry. Foods! So glad my lovey boyfriend is getting me a munchie. Mon-chee-chee! Haa.

Well, that sucks.

I was just looking up online to try and find out what effects Turquoise has on Cancers, since it is a Saggitarian stone, and I got to find out that the President's birthday is three days before mine.

Am I doomed, Blog?

Bubbles coming out of my ears, trying to wake up! I need a blast of cold air in my face.

Tonight I get to go see Bowling for Columbine with B & Mark...been wanting to see that for awhile. I have been so much of a recluse lately! I wonder what the moon is doing right now. For awhile I was on the same pattern as the moon - if it was waxing, I had energy. So much of it, I was manic! But if it was waning, I was slow and not full of ideas or motivation. When I am closer to being myself, I don't push my energy I let it be. Perhaps that is why that will happen?

Well, duh. Just looking at my calendar, I see that tonight is a new moon (no moon), and that explains my low energy, want to sleep, and being a hermit! Phew...that is something - following the moon. We're all made of the same elements though so it does make sense that we could pick up on something that is related to us. Also here I found that right before our trip to Mexico, the moon starts waxing so when we're there we'll get a full moon! Last time I was there and it was a full moon, there were parties. People love celebrating the moon! Especially me, because being a Cancer makes me even closer to the moon. I'm a water sign, I can't help it!

So there is my dialogue on the Moon. Yay, moon! On to other topics...Bri moved in here so now my place is Full to the Brim! But it's good. I was just on the phone with my momma telling her about how I feel very much Me with B, and how I haven't ever felt that way with anyone before. But she knows that, and she told me she likes seeing us together because she knows he's good for me. I haven't had any anxiety about him moving in here, but I know I've thought about things from different angles. Does that mean some will come later? Or are we really just that cool? haha, I didn't mean it like that. Really though, I feel comfortable sharing my space with him and don't feel selfish when I need my own.

Toodles, I am going to get ready for the mov-ee. Slumber party tonight!!

[3/18/2003 10:36:11 AM | melissa dion]
Oh Jesus. I can't believe I'm almost Done with this stupid frootybooter site. Just finished up the It'l dealer locator, which had me thinking sort of about our Stupid President. How do we convince other countries to carry our stoopid frootyboots if they hate us? Can I EVER move to Canada? Or maybe when B and I go down south, we'll just STAY in Mexico. That's my latest plan. I could hand in snowboarding in exchange for a seemingly-endless life of "el surf bum". Definitely fathomable.

The past two days, I've gotten great sleep. Still groggy when I wake up, but my new routine of waking up 15 minutes before I Need to really makes a difference on my alertness in the AM.

Fang seems depressed. Can fish do that? I think he's either:
a) tired of his little home in the flower vase
b) sick of having Avril's picture on his home

Both of which I know would irritate me. Maybe...it could be time to take the bratty girl down. Her pouty face can't be anything of help or encouragement to me, now can it?

This month is going by at a much slower pace than February was. I like that! Coming home from work and knowing that I have four hours or so of whatever I want to do ahead of me, I like that! This weekend I hope it's sunny or at least dry so we can go skating. Things have been so lovely with Brian lately. I'm getting excited anticipating his moving in. I'm afraid of feeling cramped, because I already feel like that but he's over and around so much of the time already that I don't think it will be a rough adjustment. Plus, knowing that we'll be getting our *own* place in two months is a good reassurer that I can stay normal, because the light is at the end of our tunnel or whatever you'd think I'm in. I don't feel like I'm in a tunnel!

I wore my old vans today. So of course it rained. This morning was weird, being stuck in an elevator I think is the first time I've ever had an inkling of clausterphobia. Maybe if we couldn't have gotten ahold of anyone, it would have freaked me out after awhile? The whole time I was feeling hot and thinking about how I forgot to put on deodorant this morning. Funny, that was my worry. It would have sucked if we weren't on the bottom floor, if none of our cellphones worked, etc. But they did. A little 25-minute escapade of sorts, then off to work. Glad we made it, I don't like coming in late.

So that's my thoughts of the day. I feel dried up of thoughts. Want to finish my art projects!

When's the next ferry>>?

Oh Jesus. I can't believe I'm almost Done with this stupid frootybooter site. Just finished up the It'l dealer locator, which had me thinking sort of about our Stupid President. How do we convince other countries to carry our stoopid frootyboots if they hate us? Can I EVER move to Canada? Or maybe when B and I go down south, we'll just STAY in Mexico. That's my latest plan. I could hand in snowboarding in exchange for a seemingly-endless life of "el surf bum". Definitely fathomable.

The past two days, I've gotten great sleep. Still groggy when I wake up, but my new routine of waking up 15 minutes before I Need to really makes a difference on my alertness in the AM.

Fang seems depressed. Can fish do that? I think he's either:
a) tired of his little home in the flower vase
b) sick of having Avril's picture on his home

Both of which I know would irritate me. Maybe...it could be time to take the bratty girl down. Her pouty face can't be anything of help or encouragement to me, now can it?

This month is going by at a much slower pace than February was. I like that! Coming home from work and knowing that I have four hours or so of whatever I want to do ahead of me, I like that! This weekend I hope it's sunny or at least dry so we can go skating. Things have been so lovely with Brian lately. I'm getting excited anticipating his moving in. I'm afraid of feeling cramped, because I already feel like that but he's over and around so much of the time already that I don't think it will be a rough adjustment. Plus, knowing that we'll be getting our *own* place in two months is a good reassurer that I can stay normal, because the light is at the end of our tunnel or whatever you'd think I'm in. I don't feel like I'm in a tunnel!

I wore my old vans today. So of course it rained. This morning was weird, being stuck in an elevator I think is the first time I've ever had an inkling of clausterphobia. Maybe if we couldn't have gotten ahold of anyone, it would have freaked me out after awhile? The whole time I was feeling hot and thinking about how I forgot to put on deodorant this morning. Funny, that was my worry. It would have sucked if we weren't on the bottom floor, if none of our cellphones worked, etc. But they did. A little 25-minute escapade of sorts, then off to work. Glad we made it, I don't like coming in late.

So that's my thoughts of the day. I feel dried up of thoughts. Want to finish my art projects!

When's the next ferry>>?

Sunshine in my window, makes me smiley. Begonia peering through slanted eyes, trying to find where that noise is coming from.

Chocolate melting in mouth with tastebuds eagerly moving in for more. Song on the radio, voice I never will know but speaks in the same language.

It's hard to convey an emotion or thought to someone about something you experience without saying "i, me, myself." It's like a game, to write about things I think or see or feel, but not use those words in the sentence.

Yaay! Think process is nearing the end for the day. It didn't take me as long as I thought it might, but I just learned a whole bunch about forms and submitting data to the SQL database, and generating automatic emails. Prolly sounds like a lot of nerd garble, but it was fun. Today was a good day! I snuggled my honeypie before taking a nice shower, had a relaxing morning and fun lunch eating with B and Sparky. I never had yummy salad at a restaurant like that before! But you know what I sort of noticed? This is probably just me being a snob because I am one, but I think the better foods I make for myself, the less impressed I am with dishes at restaurants. Example: fish, for me, is hard to cook. So any fish I order, is better than I could do. But if you take that tuna salad I had, though it was very good, I could easily make it exactly like they did. Maybe even better.

See? That's being a snob, right?