Well, well, well. So I finally decide to post again! Good for me. Hi-5, melissa!

Since it has been nearly a month (tsk, tsk!) since my last update, here's the skinny of the phat:
This weekend we (hunny, mark & I) are heading out to Plain to visit Eli & Michelle. A birthdays celebration of sorts. I have only met the duo once back in January, but it was good times, down to earth. Excited to get out and slowww dowwwn. We have been on the GoGoGo for the last I don't know how many months.
Let's see:
- went to Chelan and met Mark's parents. Great Folks! They have a beautifully awesome little house with plenty of places to camp out. We played scrabble, went out on the boat (lovely cruise) and up to some rocks B & Mark knew of. This is the same place that they historically peed on each other...I hate jumping off of things, and this was I think over 20'. Super deep-blue water, the kind that makes you think the Loch-Ness is lurking under there, but I knew it was safe. We drank some beers, watched some stupid gawkers, Brian did a naked backflip off the rock for them. HA! And then, Then I jumped in. Did it three times, so I hope the next time I go back there I'll have the guts to do it then, too. That was fun, getting over a little hung-up fear like that.
So, that's Chelan. Wonderfully relaxation, pleasant memories. Love to go back.

- went hiking from Ozette to Rialta Beach. This was with my sista and my hunny. We camped out in LaPush one night, then left a car there and one in Ozette. It was about a 20-mile hike and we slept two night over it. First night was all sandy, easy walking and camped right there on the beach. I Loved seeing the sea otters enjoying their catch, and the alone-ness over there at Yellow Banks. We're gonna go back there, it was an easy hike in but damn - nobody there! Perfect. The rest of the hike (14 miles?) was a Lot of rock hiking/clambering. I really didn't believe the book when it said we were in for a moderate/strenuous hike. Nuh-uh. But there we were, oh yes, hiking the most technical, most concentrating shit right out on our coast. We had to keep with the tides, many places got drowned in high-tides and luckily we crossed at Just the right times. It was slippery, balancing, serious business. But the campsites, the fires and everything just US was so very worth it. I loved that, and am so glad B and I can do so much together! Cheers to us, honey - we've got many adventures to come.

- ooh and the weekend after that was Marci & Matty's wedding. Beautiful. I don't think I can write too much about this because pictures do more glory than my words. Everyone that came was fun to be around, to meet and par-tay with. (though I really Did Not need those shots across the street!) I had a fun time, dressing up for reals for my first time I can remember. We went to the zoo and out to pizza - it was a grand adventure weekend. Packed with fun. The kind where I come home feeling like I could still do more, if it weren't so close to my bedtime! (and yes, I have YET to post pictures from anything...bad, bad melissa!)

Coming up are still MORE adventures, can you believe it? Me neither. (properly: Neither can I?) Those I can't divulge in yet, seeing as we're not to those days. In-between these days, I have been working. Work is going good though I really want to take some classes. I'm feeling stagnant and everyone is driving me crazy. Do this, change that, add this measly bit of info. I want CREATIVITY here, people! Blarf.

Everything is going so grand, so much love in my heart for everything right now...it just keeps growing and I Love all of it!

Oooh, so very Excited to just THINK about getting a new computer. How lovely it would be, to send off my ole' trusty (but outdated) PC away and welcome in a fresh, swifty G4 or such. Not done reviewing yet, and would like to actually Go To a store and talk to some salespersons...Gad, ack salespeople!

Work has gotten back into a lovely pace. It is easier coming in now, and easier to want to leave early, seeing as it has been warmer and sunnier and whatnot.

This weekend my dear Grandpa is having his NINETIETH birthday party! Go, grandpa! B will get to meet my whole extended family, aside from removed cousins and such. Might be around 70 people there? Very excited for this. I get to bring a salad, which I hope to WOW everybody with. I am in love with salads.

Everything has been super on the homefront. Hunny brought home three large, beautiful boquets last night and they really lit up the house! Nothing looks better on the kitchen's sill than a big bunch of yellow lilies, orange daisies and little white whoosey-whatsits. Thanks, B!

And we've been surfing more. I put on my goals for work to go surfing ten times this summer. So far, I've got three and plus one more this weekend. I think I just might make it! There is nothing like leaving everything in my mind on shore, and playing in the water. I absolutely love it. Makes me excited inside, thinking about everywheres to go vacationing and have the opportunity to surf.

Check out my website soon: Day of being made-up at Burnt Sugar (in Fremont) and My New Shoes!! Wheeeee!

You know what bothers me? People that don't return emails or phone calls for almost two weeks, then stop by unannounced and want to "catch up". I said I was busy working right now, I have no idea what you've been up to lately and now is Not convenient for me to chat - especially because it will mean I can't work, I will have to deviate my thoughts from work...et cetera.

I am fine with people getting busy with other things. I think what I am hurt by here is that I have been a good friend, a good listener, offering advice freely and sincerly -- and then sporatically you pop by to chat -- and you're leaving for another state tonight so I won't be seeing you for another week at least!


Now, is this a dumb rant? I don't know, probably I shouldn't put so much weight on it. Part of me knew feelings like this were coming so maybe I was waiting to release them? Questions that don't need answers, feelings that can simmer and leave.

I think what best describes my feelings is this:
I feel like I was a friend as a space-filler for a little bit. Once A. moved in, I don't see you anymore. You're not lonely, not living alone anymore. Maybe you're working more and that's understandable for sure...but can you at least return phone calls and talk to me in some other way besides email and text messaging? Something more personal than popping by real quick when we haven't talked in a couple weeks?

Also this:
Cancers are sensitive. To Everything. And we are quick to put up walls against things that hurt us.

"Everybody is a star
I can feel it when you shine on me
I love you for who you are
Not the one you feel you need to be"

We're going to write Belle & Sebastian to see if they will play at our wedding.

Trying to think of something cunning and a wee bit persuasive...

Good day to you. Well, my Birthday had a very pleasant elongation. (was elongated?) Friday after work - which I could Not get out of Early as I wished - we hopped in the packed car and made it down to nearly Manzanita, OR. Wanted to camp in Short Sands but of course, those were full. Doh! So we camped in/near Cannon Beach...in a lovely field, in a trailer park. But no worries, we got in late and took off before we paid!

Surfing on Saturday was Whoo-eee Fun! The waves were coming in nice sets, pretty even and then a break every now and then to give me a chance to paddle back out. B and me stayed sort of close to each other, and it was fun to watch him learn. I love that we surf together! He's picking it up well, too.

The Oregon coast is just so pretty. Not like the Canadian Rockies or a nice vase of pink roses either. It's pretty in the sense that you get more of a feeling of vastness when you look out over the cliffs above the ocean. A feeling that you aren't as big and significant. Humbling. Our weather though, it decided to get wet and slightly drizzly on Saturday afternoon. After surfing we hung out and did crosswords on the beach for awhile, and it was nice and warm. Then I swear, as soon as we got in the car, it started raining a bit.

But that was OK! For on Sunday, after camping in the horse area (!) of Nehalem Bay park...no, really. It wasn't stinky or gross. It was WAY more secluded and private than the other sardine-packed sites at this place. Nehalem bay has some 50 campsites, and 80% had kids. It was unruly. So, anyway we camped in the horse area...walked down to the windiest beach in the west and roasted marshmallows. Mellow but uplifting night. After this, we checked out the surf and opted to go East towards Portland and:

NEWBERG!!!

Oh Newberg, you have such a fun little snake run and capsule. And you weren't crowded on Sunday. Too bad I ate a crappy breakfast at some roadside trout-feeding pond restaurant. It completely bogged me down and I was too lethargic to be of any good at the skatepark. B had fun though; it was a good bit hotter out too, with the sun shining.

What fun summer is! Then last night, against warnings of flat surf, us dumbasses drove out to the coast in hope of more fun waves. Alas! What is this? After a super sleep session at the campground in Westport, we groggily awake at 5am to fog and f-l-a-t water. Waves were barely even able to lap at the shore. In disbelief, we checked all spots and called it a morning. I slept as B drove us back into Seattle - made it back by 8:00 - good for us.

That's my adventures for now...more (pictures included) will be published on my website.

Ah yes, summertime is in Full Effect. Sweet, sweet summer...waking to crisp but comfortable air, keeping the windows open all day...Ta-da!

Tonight I leave on the 2:45 (fingers crossed) to trek on down to Short Sands, i.e. Manzanita, for surfing aplenty and to pay a little visit to Newburg. Yayy Newburg! For my birthday, B said we could do anything I wanted. At first I wanted to camp out in E. Washington, but now I'm like - wait. Is that Really what I want to do? It's all dry there...and not really full of skateparks. I think what he would really like to do would be to spend a weekend doing nothing at a nice hotel, somewhere nice - but now we're both so excited to surf and hang out in Oregon. So very glad that B likes surfing. It's much better when your best friend likes doing the same things you do!

My birthday was two days ago and I am still happy inside from it. Never knew they could be so much fun! Went to Beppo's (must post pictures from my *NEW* digital camera on website)(Thank-you, Brian!) and it was a really great crowd of people. Couldn't ask for anything more...then we went to Linda's for some babble and vodka-crans. And to see my sister have some drinks, for once! Good job, sista. Very much looking forward to mini-roadtrip with her next month. I do wish she wasn't going to skool so far away because I miss her, but the times we have together are getting richer. We're growing closer and I love it.

I don't really have time to type much. Man, I haven't documented anything! Work has been 100% full-speed ahead lately. That is a good thing - I am loving it and we are very busy. Thought things would slow down after the k2snow & ride sites went up but golly, no! This week I've been running at 75-80% because we didn't have any break for almost three months. Once I hand in this 5150 shit hopefully ski can come in. Uck, can't write about work in Blog. Sorry.

And I didn't write about Calgary. Those are more pics that will go up on the site. THAT was a vacation. Man...Tues-Sun. That's almost a week away. It was such a break, mentally to get out like that. I was living every minute where I was, to the fullest. Learning to FINally drop in was an accomplishment for me. Never knew how hard I can be on myself. It was easier, having the world's most patient boyfriend there helping me. I can't say for sure that I'd like to go back to Calgary per se, but definitely back into the Banff regions. Those mountains are the most majestic, awesome sight. So powerful.

My mind is high on everything right now. I am having the Best Summer!

Hey! Oh how much do I LOVE getting away like that? Friday night we moseyed up to Whistler, where scrabble playing ensued and I stepped in Stevie's beer-spit. Socks in garbage. Saturday woke up and hmmm, it's a little damp out. What! The tops of the mountains were a mystery, shrouded in thick fog. Pretty scary-looking to go up and ride so we all hopped in the white whale to head North: Mission find Indoor Skatepark. B & me had seen a flyer for an opening-day comp at this indoor skatepark that was somewhere up by Pemberton. Logic told us that if we asked the yokels in Pemberton where this park was, they could point the way. After asking three different groups of people, we emptied our bladders and headed out in unknown direction. According to the most "reliable-sounding" person, if we went "on that road to your left", and kept on it "even after it turns into a one-lane gravel road", we'd find it. We didn't know when, but estimations lead us to believe it was around 60km. So...we're on this dirt road, spirits are high, scenery is mind-blowing. It was SO gorgeous out there, even more magnificent than Whistler. We stayed on that road for quite some time. Road went up, road followed long dropoffs, road was found to have two cute bear cubs chillin' in it. Look, there's the mama! Those were precious.

This expedition, we held up pretty well. Mark was fuming (because his newly-fixed car was getting worked!), though it wasn't easy to tell. I think we all were thinking, at one point or another, that we felt absolutely daffy for thinking that we would find a skatepark out in the middle of ginormous mountains and wilderness. It was just too absurd! After a bunch of outbursts and jokes, the din died down to a few comments here and there, and our token drunk took a nap in the back. We drove about an hour-and-a-half on this dirt road. It was never ending! At a random crane, out in the middle of literally nowhere, we turned around. No skatepark. I know it's there somewhere, Braelorn (sp?) does exist, but all the locals of Pemberton seemed just a little confused as to where it actually IS. See MAP

See that river to the left? I think that's what we were following. It was pretty massive. Felt very nostalgic of dinosaurs roaming the earth, if that makes any sense.

We Never found the now legendary indoor skatepark of Bralorne. Maybe next time, right? So we kept driving right on out of Pemberton and I tried to ride the skatepark we knew, but my legs were pretty weak from sitting in a car for five hours. Five Hours!

The rest of the weekend consisted of blissfully satisfying skatepark riding and tourage, mini scrabble tourneys and MMmmm food consumption. Oh god, how I love to eat! And those martinis and the Mongolie Grill....deammmn! I wish I had my own little mongolie grill here in my kitchen. How supercool would that be? "hmm, I'm hungry -- I think I'll go have my pick of whatever I want from my little mongolie-bar..."

I was away long enough to let my mind off on a tangent and not think about anything but where I was. I wish I had the ability to do that at any time. No more worrying about this or that randoms, just being where I am. It was very refreshing to get away from everything.

I am so grateful with what life has given me. I have so much to appreciate and enjoy!!

well i'll go to college and i'll learn some big words
and i'll talk real loud -
goddamn right i'll be heard!
you'll remember that guy that said all those big words he must've learned in college
=
and it took a long time
i came clean with myself.
=
i fell clean out of love with my lover -
i still love her
love her more when she used to be sober and i was kinder.

Oh my god, this song is making me so sad I can't stop listening to it. Just the ending though. It's all misty out and goddamnit I have to press out these stupid dana pages...too much work. Not enough time. Sooooo, SO excited to venture up to Vissler this weekend! How nice it will be, to have a four-day workweek next week. It will definitely be a feat if we pull off bikes, boards AND skating. Hope the weather feels like coooperating.

Today has been super productive and I feel fulfilled with what I've done today. Look, I'm a cog in the working world! Hah.

YARR BLOG! First-mate Marcy here, cap'n crunch'n all...

Man I just can't work anymore. Coming in on the early boat is now a staple but Jeesh it's like - how long can I just straight w-o-r-k for? Stoptime. So last weekend was the Best. I cannot get over how much fun I have while surfing. I also cannot figure out how I used to get past bigger waves. Was I just not as worn out? The scene is becoming so big, there were at least 20 people in the water down by the fingers last week. What else is cool is the growing number of chicks doing it. Yay, us! The minority of everything besides pregnancy. And lesbianism. Aaand, what else? I know we're not the minority of everything. Now I'm remembering a lovely conversation with Eli and B and Michelle about things that women really can do better than men. Hmph. But yes, surfing was very rewarding, fun, exhilerating - and cute to see B out there too! I love being out in the water, out floating and out pushing myself to new places.

Work is getting under control. About a month ago, I was swimming. Very happy to have that turn around. And my teensy spit of a raise. This company is such a Joke, I swear! Can't wait to go back to skool. Need to figure out what it is I'd really rather do longterm - both of the fields of interest (if I do narrow it down to those two) are pretty specific.

Yelch, time to catch zee ferry. Wondering if I could leave car in parking lot overnight...such a waste, to have missed acupuncture today. Oh well, always tomorrow! I think I'm going to request 15 needles in my wrist alone, this time. Stuipid CT.

Why the Verve, blog? Aaah it's so sad!
Like a cat in a bag, waiting to drown - this time I'm coming down. (talk about Wah!)

This weekend was so much fun! Scrabble is a bad disease sometimes. I am very excited for summer to finally be here, skating at Burien on Saturday was So Much Fun I think I might burst. That is something I needed to do, just hang out in the sun and skateskateskate! It's fun going with the same people too, seeing them learn new tricks. Grrr, that's something I need to do. Was getting quite frustrated! I'd love to get a new skateboard for my bday. Something about bigger wheels, going faster...?

And then surfing - oh yay! I am so jittery for this weekend to come so that me & B can get out there...definitely good times. It felt good to be back in the waves, back with the water. Floating...paddling...looking around and seeing people who love the effort and fun of surfing. Love it. See, now I'm glad I have an extra board - it's very handy for having people come with who don't have their own! Oh, and the sun came out...glistening off the waves, and then the foamy leftovers from a wave crashing past. Going surfing makes me all excited like when I was learning how to snowboard. And the Sun!

Must get back to work -- wanted to log the fun weekend before it becomes Wednesday.

Holy two-boat work schedule, Blog. Very pleased I caught the 6:55 today...

Just found out that spinach and peanuts block your body from absorbing calcium. But not chocolate = Interesting.

Looking forward to Whistler this weekend!! I hope it warms up up there, just checked and it is a rigid 30F. Not exactly what I'd like but hey that's good! Also hoping it stays dry because I would very very much like to go skatepark touring up the hwy as well. Fun weekend coming up with my honey! I love it that we can do anything together & don't get bored and don't run out of words to say. Love that we are going out of town, to forget about things for a few days.

Argh must work must Work! Bogged down in a swamp, must work. Belle & Sebastian are perfect right now.

Oh Blog. I am getting tired of fixing my posture. I almost told my p.trainer to just tape me up so I can screw all these stretches and exercises. But my doktor wants to stop acupuncture & start on massage, which would be a lovely treatment.

B's birthday is tomorrow and Brian since you read this sometimes, I can't very well write what I got you now CAN I? Hah. Gin and I took the early boat (whee) and ran all over the place before finding what we needed: undisclosed birthday present item here. She sure can come in handy for knowing what to get for people! Such a lovely, thoughtful girl. This weekend is getting all full of stuffs.

And I want a nice new wide skateboard. Very envious of B's new deck...

On the positive, work is seeming accomplishable again. The tables are giving me issues but it's coming along nicely. Stupid MS with their stoopid .NET krap, they were in our office today filming and they were like "oh, cool...so you guys are the web department - can we film you like, doing some real-life work?" Ali and I both despise this attention. Ali more than I, likely, being as she really knows a whole bunch and nobody out there even knows a small percentage of it. Then this guy has to come out and - oh I don't know. I think it was also Vickie Mercer who creeps the entire company out. She came by, then lousy Pius and his droning voice came by With the Cameramen. Just obnoxious.

Ah yes, the positives...getting excited planning someone's birthday. Never done that before. Cute gerbera daisies here by my desk...all bright & cheery. Oooh and we're planning time up at the condo in Whistler - biking yay! Summer trips are looking splendid. I can't wait to go surfing! Want to nail down SD - excited to surf in warm weather. Oooh yes. Longboard skimming across bubbly waves with sunshine on my back, sounds of crashing water and getting wet in my bathing suit. I.Can't.Wait!!

Limited mobility passenger elevator

Servicing the piling

Such a fun yesterday, canoeing! Seeing the blue heron very up-close, when it was stuck in the reeds...the eagle chasing the seagull...getting stuck backwards in the dead-ended tunnel. Mother goose, large mother goose, guarding her nest and scaring me. Having fields of lily pads surrounding and the sun shining its rays right through the bright green leaves, casting soft glow across everywhere I look. And then having to pee in the middle of the fun.

Rotating scrabble board = trouble.

Ug. Highly delerious due to lack of proper sleep. Bedtime: 2am. Awaketime: 5:45. Stupid early boat. What in god's name was I thinking? Stupid scrabble addiction. I wasn't even playing with good score last night.

Today:

- work. finish Ride boards...specs & features. need to create interactivity per Tara's req?

- mandatory picnic. no longer care about rumored beer.

- followed by mandatory meeting. hmph.

- acupuncture. maybe she can stick a needle somewhere that will make my body think it has gained sleep?

- sleep, cozy, lounge etc. tonight. highlight of the day!

Reheating hazlenut soy latte was worst idea in the world. Disgusting - took one sip and almost hurled self out of whale.

Staying up until almost midnight finishing pages just doesn't work when I have to wake up at 6:30. Lethargic drawl runs through my limbs.

DeathCab is just about all I can handle right now. Enough of stupid new White Stripes, no thanks Cory. ...stupid cory.

I am eight years old. Today has not been a very good day. Today has made me want to scream because right now that's what I am doing inside. I hate feeling like my whole life built up to this day has been one big mistake and it's not getting any easier to figure out where I'm going. I hate that when we were putting up those framed polaroids in the kitchen that the sun had to come bashing down and make that loud noise. And I don't hate my kitty but I didn't like that watering pitcher to hurl itself off the windowsill when I opened the window, causing Begonia to leap out of my arms with her claws ripping into my arms, then landing on the lucky bamboo pot and cracking its lovely green varnish.

GRRRR.

Brian's not good at small talk. And that's okay!

JoJos for dinner....that's okay, too. Thanks B for going and getting that because I am stuck here building out my 24 pages of snowboards. Yay.

Don't like how I've been feeling about myself this week. Want to crawl in a hole. Really don't want to go to the picnic on Friday, though beer is a good incentive. Stupid work picnic, stupid boss leaving for vacation so we have to come in on our days-off.

Oh I am full of complaints right now! Let's hear something positive, okay? ...I am looking at beautiful roses that my honey brought me. They smell lovely and remind me that even though I might not feel like it, I can be special.

gag

Resisting the urge to go to scary upstairs cafeteria. Have been hearing good reviews lately from A, but still skeptical. I know there was a reason I was protesting!

Recent thoughts:

- when acupuncture/PT is finished, will maybe do yoga instead of kung foo

- whistler over memorial day/skate tour - very fun

- check into frequent flier miles/san diego surf trip

- when IS cory going to stop playing that g-damn postal service?

- want to go skating after work! it's all sunny!

- look up 2, 3-letter words for scrabble

See all the business inside my head right now? And I'm supposed to be working on these images for the dana site. Thank god the sb site's almost done...this pile isn't getting any smaller!

Excited Holly is coming home!

Sucks it rained today. SO glad I went out yesterday w/Gin to Burien & Lakewood. It was nice, both weren't even packed and we got there a little late. That little brat that calls me fart-girl was there. He makes me want to vomit, these kids are so good, so young. I love it. Then at Lakewood it was funny, there was this dad there wearing all pads and a safety vest with "Volunteer Patrol" on the back. He was giving me tips on rolling off the spine. Gotta love it! Then we practiced our ollies next to the car and took off. Though I have no desire to hop curbs and skate street, I love that other people do because of the practice it takes to get that good.

And the little girl wearing her Good Charlotte t-shirt, with boots on.

Had a garage sale yesterday. B made $400 off his snowboard gear, etc. Yay garage sales. Boo to the fish & chips at Pacific Inn. Are they only good with beer? Today is a good day for me to get everything cleaned up, positive side of it being wet & can't skate. I can't believe the unpacking process has taken this long. But it feels good, I love everything about this place! Kinda weird that I live in the same building as Jody. I've never had a friend live in the same building before. Glad she keeps her blinds drawn because I like having mine open. I don't think I could be comfortable in my room unpacking everything if I looked up and saw her looking out her window. Ack.

Want to be huge recluse lately. Too much socialization squashes my mind from roaming.

One question: WHY would you go to an all-skateboarding event, if you don't even skate? Please submit all responses directly to me. I want to know!

MAYDAY, MAYDAY!

Too bad I'm at work today and can't leave flowers on people's doorsteps. That's ok, there aren't really flowers anywhere to pick.

So I am just about all moved in now and it feels So Good!! Very fun place we have now. And a new plan with Mexico: we're going to take a little vacation in October now - fun! It will be a bit of a burden off my back, I can focus on work and not worry about being tight for money. We'll do something superfun for B's birthday still, for sure. Want to have a party! And hopefully now, we can hang out in San Diego for a little weekend. I haven't been there since my 9th birthday. The only reason I remember that is because there was a little bookshop there I got to choose out a book. So I am not too sure what exactly we'd be doing down there, but it would be very fun to find some surf spots and just hang with my sweetie. So fun!

Good updates, we have. Work is a big hairy swamp right now, complete with alligators and wombats coming to get me. A bit of anxiety, and Ali feels the same way. Hope to hear good things about our budget today. Keeping fingers crossed.